Twins part 2

My beautiful twins. As they grew they got more and more difficult, but not impossible. They didn't communicate well so that brought on problems all of its own, noise was a problem, new environments, basically anything and everything! I felt like i was always trapped in my house. They were so destructive and had such behaviors I couldn't go to a friends house, church, but they like to go for drives in the car. They are 4 and still to this day they are not potty trained. I have never felt more like a failure as a parent as i have with these two. I just simply don't know how to parent them. Everything i do or try does not work. Many nights I just sit and cry and cry to God and ask for help. One night as i was crying and asking for God's help he asked me "are you ready for me to help you yet". YES YES YES, what do you think i have been asking for all this time. What i figured out was i wanted his help but never let him, or listened to what he was saying.                 
                                      Persistence! Perseverance! Patience! 
Every year as i see the Dr. i always said i think something is wrong. He always assured me that it is just because they are delayed but they will catch up and be OK. Every year was the same thing, and every year it seem to get harder and harder. Finally after I heard God say that to me i call the Dr. and got another apt. and everything i have been saying he saw and got the testing started, it was like God lifted blinders off his eyes to witness what they battle with every day and sometimes nights. I felt rejuvenated like i was heard. Finally i can let it all go and just enjoy!
The twins are best friends and worst enemies! They will protect each other and beat the snot out of  each other. What one doesn't think of the other does. I am always on my toes, fixing things adding new locks to doors and cupboard and such. They make my life more.

Lord- Thank you so much for these boys. My life is forever changed because of them. My mothers heart prays for their future. Make there paths clear but yet challenge them to grow, plant them on the hearts of your people to pray without ceaseing. I come against any harmful plans of destruction for their lives and pray for blessings. I know you have a plan for them as 2 because that is how you sent them. Help shandon and i to lead them. I pray for creative ideas, patience, continued strength. I also pray for their relationship as they grow nothing will come between them or harbor any grudges that could cause a wedge between them Because I KNOW you have a plan for them, you sent them as 2!